How did we get here?

Hello, hello.
Yes, I am back.
It's been quite a while that I haven't blogged/gone online. 
About two weeks.

What happened? You may ask?
Alright let's try to sum this up.
I had quite a trippy weekend after my last post. And I weighed in at 91 lbs. It was magical. I don't know if it was the fasting, the alcohol ( which apparently is a diuretic ) , or all the other substances I may have abused.
However, things took a turn for the worse and my mother has sort of been REALLY onto me. And she took my cake away, and has been monitoring me somewhat closely. And not only food-wise. Fuck my life.

I...fucked up with my long-distance fiancé / boyfriend / person I rarely even talk to, whatever you wanna call him.

And I have been getting fed, relatively regularly. And I have no clue how much I weigh. It's quite terrible.

However. 
I am back.
Which means, expect regular posts, written as I usually write them. 

Also, I received a music award thing, and a beautiful blogger award, which I appreciate beyond words, litterally. I am completely dumbfounded as to how I earned an award, I don't usually earn/ win much when it comes to awards (and life).
I'll be adressing it in my next post, since I am falling asleep atm. 

Also, same goes for replying to all the comments I got while gone.

Much love,
-Rezzie xx