Yay..
Honestly, I'm too tired to care anymore, or to even try and see what I did wrong. The introspective person I was has disappeared, along with the lbs that disappeared.
bingebingebingebingeFUCKINGbinge.
There goes my magical 93 lbs.
I wouldn't be surprised if I weighed in at 97 tomorrow.
However I'm going to work out to try and shed as much as I can. And I will be back on restricting / fasting starting tomorrow.
I read an online article about how 'Ana' is becoming more and more popular online. And how to some girls, Ana is a person, to others, it's almost a religion or something. And how to some, Ana is considered an alternative lifestyle rather than an eating disorder (with which I wholeheartedly agree. )
I thought about it. To me, Ana is a beautiful creature. Perfection , happiness, calmness, serenity, beauty, peacefulness. Ana is a friend who would never give up on me, because she knows I can make it. Ana is a goal. Ana helps me, in my strive to happiness, and thinness. It makes me feel serene to just think of her. I think I'll try to sketch Ana. And maybe post it here.
What/ Who is Ana to you ?
Picture: Kaya Scodelario, aka Effy Stonem, one of my fave celeb. thinspos.
-Much love, Rezzie xx
to me ana is a part of me. almost like a conscience. an imaginary friend i talk to who and who keeps me on track and tells me what i need to hear. she is my motivation, she is the only structure in my life. she is perfection. and she only wants the best for me. ana is the best friend i never had, the secret keeper i've always needed.
ReplyDeleteAna is a demon that invades tour mind, makes you sick, distorts your reality, turns you against the world, takes away your happiness, then convinces you that these are all things you want and need. Ana is the best liar I know.
ReplyDeleteShes my fav thinspo too.
ReplyDeleteTo me ana is an amazing creature. one that i see, and its right infront of me, but i can never ever reach it, which is why i desire it so badly.
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