Been restricting like crazy for the past few days, Weighed in at 95 pounds today.
yesyesyes. ♥
So "happy", except for the fact that I'm getting this weird problem, where my heart hurts and it feels like I'm suffocating. Idk, maybe it's just lack of sleep, or simply me being paranoid, as always.
Why did I put "happy" between quotation marks, you might ask? I don't believe in it anymore, I don't believe in love either. My boyfriend/fiancé and I broke up today. 9 months down the drain. Engagement down the drain. Happiness down the drain. Comfort down the drain.Fairy tale down the drain. Perfect summer down the drain. Love down the fucking drain.
We were supposed to go bunjee jumping this summer, and stargazing. Rock climbing too, and going to the beach. Watching cheesy movies, staying up late in eachother's arms.. Partying together, dancing the night away..
He was practically the only constant in my life, other than Ana. The only thing I could rely on...
I guess now being thin is the only thing that matters... just losing weight till I disappear into perfection.
I really hope this heart problem thing isn't going to last until tomorrow..I've got a french final exam.
Anyways, I am in no mood to study. So I guess I'll just have to improvise.
-Much love, Rezzie xx
Stay strong girls.
That sounds like so much to handle. I'm sorry to hear you and your boyfriend/fiance broke up. But on the bright side, it was 9 months and not years of your life down the drain. You've got a lot ahead of you to look forward to.
ReplyDeleteAlso, I added you to the Skinny Pact. But you don't really need it, Miss 95 lbs! ;)
Oh no... Alice is right, that is a lot to handle. Break ups, especially from serios relationships like yours, suck big time :(
ReplyDeleteHang in there and stay strong. All it takes is time. Good luck on your test! And now focus on YOU and purely YOU. This is time to learn more about yourself and do some soul searching....not that you need to lol. It's just now you can be as selfish as you please! In a GOOD way of course haha :)